For a while recently, I've been struggling with the notion of being bi. A couple weeks back,
astroboy told me I should post here once I came out to him, and I'm finally working up the courage to do so. So here goes nothing...
All my life I've felt different then all the other boys my age. I wasn't that weird/antisocial kid who stayed to my self, but rather I've just never been that masculine. I've never been into stuff typically stereotyped as "Manly", be it sports, cars, or working with tools. This may not seem like a big deal, but my particular situation makes it a rather awkward position to be in. When I was young, my mom met my (now)step father, who is what could be called a "man's man". Growing up he always expected me to be like him, which I will generalize for the sake of simplicity as just masculine. This combined with him being strictly conservative has always made my life miserable for reasons I couldn't explain until about a month ago. Compounding the matter to make it even worse is when I was 11, my family packed up and moved from a metropolitan city area to a small little town that I swear is the most discriminatory place in Michigan. This is where a problem of mine comes into play. I can't come out IRL for risk of being bullied and/or harassed for the rest of highschool. So that's not an option. On another note, I tried coming out to my parents, which is a big step I suppose. But they refuse to accept it. When I told then I thought I was bi, my dad slapped me and then neither of my parents talked to me for close to 2 weeks, and now they act like nothings happened. That I guess, is why I'm posting here. I would rather come out on the internet, where no one actually cares about my sexuality, compared to me getting picked on for the next 2.5 years if I do so IRL. Sorry for the long ass post, but this is something I've been holding on to for a bit and it honestly feels so great to be able to tell people, While typing this I feel like all the pressure building up in me has subsided and I don't know if I can honestly express how amazing it feels to finally put this out there, into words, for the whole world(or at least a bunch of people on a pokemon site) to see. Thanks for reading :)